Not-So-Secret Secrets

• Sometimes I wish I would die under tragic circumstances while I'm still young, so people will remember me for everything I could have been, instead of growing older and failing to live up to the expectations set for me.
  
  
• The previous statement I took this from a postcard sent into PostSecret and used it as my own.
  
  
• I sometimes think it'd be fun to get in a major car accident.
  
  
• I generally dislike small-talk. I see nothing wrong with silence and I feel no need to fill the void with inconsequential babbling.
  
  
• I am self-destructive, manipulative, self-mutilating, self-medicating, bitter, nefarious and anti-social .... and I like it.
  
  
• I prefer the night from daylight. The idea or feeling of not being so exposed to the world is comforting. The silence at night, I both enjoy and despise. While there is less distraction, there is also an overwhelming sense of abandonment and loneliness.
  
  
• I've sent multiple cards into PostSecret and wish I actually had the backbone to say what I write and to live my life how I believe I would be most happy.
  
  
• While I am a stereotypical American who loves money and the materialistic gains I can achieve from it - I honestly would rather not have to deal with anything money-related.
  
  
• I sometimes wish I could be a nomadic hobo. Not because I think it'd be fun, but because I think I would appreciate life more.
  
  
• It irritates me to no end when I'm on the phone with someone who is either a) watching television and not talking to me, but not saying they have to go or b) talking to someone else near them, ignoring me.
  
  
• Most of the time when people call I pretend I don't hear the phone or I'm not home. Not because I don't like the person, but because I hate phones.
  
  
• Then again, I sometimes pretend I'm not home when people knock.
  
  
• I personally despise being dependent on medication.
  
  
• I pride myself on being similar to my father... I'm not sure if that's such a great thing.
  
  
• I have abandonment issues.
  
  
• If someone asks me about personal problems I usually brush things off as if things are looking up.
  
  
• I have gotten sort of use to it now, but part of me still can't stand being asked, "Are you okay?"
  ---- Especially when I'm feeling fine - happy even - and people assume something must be wrong because I'm not flapping my jaw.
  
  
• I dislike counseling. Not because I think it's a crock... but because I'm afraid of change. I don't think I'll like who I may become. I'm use to how I am now.
  
  
• While I love technology and typing on the computer, there is something romantic and calming about writing things out long hand - even more so in pen.
  
  
• I have never been arrested, but when I was in the 4th grade I was detained by 2 or 3 police men.
  
  
• I pride myself on being tomboy-ish, but wish I had the confidence to be more girlie.
  
  
• I feel most like myself when around those that live monetary-average lives, cuss freely, have tattoos and have piercings.
  
  
• I wish I had the opportunity to live in Europe.
  
  
• I identify myself with the skater/punk/tattooed crowd, but often feel like a poser when I dress like them.
  
  
• I can hardly ever sit still. I often have to be popping my knuckles, twitching my leg or foot, or be playing with something such as a pencil.
  
  
• When writing stories, papers or poetry I try to use larger vocabulary. I love vocab but fail to recall words when actually speaking.
  
  
• I wish that I could be a part of a female or co-ed version of a real life Fight Club.
  
  
• I love listening to LPs (records) and believe that it is the only correct way to listen to classical music (the exception is listening to it live).
  
  
• I generally despise "girl-talk", gossip and, for the most part, loathe hanging out with the female gender ... however there are exceptions.
  
  
• I hate social norms and the retribution/peer-pressure that appears or becomes apparent when you stray from it.